Survivors Road2healing
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click the link on our website. www.road2healing.com (Look for the red writing) I hope you have found comfort and healing at the SR2H website. God bless you. | Name | Sheila Harvin |
| Date | 2008-07-20 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | July 17,2007 |
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| Message | I am thankful to have found others that feel just like me. My husband shot himself by gunshot and I was the one that found him. He hid his hopelessness from me. I would have never thought he would do such a thing. I visit his grave every other day. I keep thinking he will just walk in the door." Hey Baby!" I feel so alone and unable to be social, my pain is so obvious, it causes me to avoid most social settings. I feel like when I do smile, my heart breaks more. If God would only let me see him one more time, I never got to tell him goodbye He was a wonderful husband.The kind of man most women would only dream about. The love we had was incredible, which makes this even worst, because I'll never know what happened. horror of finding him never goes away. There is a huge social stigma in our society for the survivors of suicide. It's almost callous, and most certainly uninformed. the one's you would think would be there for you, friends, your church, etc... are not . I have trouble maintaining every day practical matters, as though steps 1-9 are missing .Greedy in-laws threw me away like a used paper towel, left me with no where to go, no job, no money. I went from a six figure life to foodstamps. My husband had been a sucessful , well educated man. During his recovery from Prescription meds, his length of hospital stay should have been longer to safely reduce him off. Somehow, he must have had a meltdown. The doctors never informed me of a potential sucicide risk. |