| Message | After 7 miserable years of marriage to an alcoholic, I had decided enough was enough. So much devastation I had witnessed, depression I had become entangled in, giving up, giving in, ly ing to myself, lying to others, 20 or more books to fix my life, my marriage, my husband, something so huge rose up inside of me. It was a giant paradox that filled my heart and head that was this:I am so sick to death of life with D.and his drinking that I dont care if I lose him, so "Get out now, and If you want stay married you will 1. Quit Drinking 2.Commit to a program or rehab 3.stop lying". He decided to do just that after 3 weeks (It was a miserable 3 weeks for both of us, I felt like I was losing my mind but I pretended to be ready to file for divorce & not care. After he committed to my 3 ultimatums, he said, "I was going to get sober with or without you," I knew AA would work this time. He gets his 30 day chip on Sunday and has a sponsor and has done his first 3 steps. His outlook is so different. We have always been believers in God, but the negativity, laziness,jealousy, and verbal abuse has fallen away. He actually cares about what I want to do, and doesnt put himself first like he used to. It is like a different guy that I like better than the guy I fell in love with. I know there will be bumps, but I feel like we will be ok. My depression has lifted, and I feel like living again. |
