Survivors Road2healing
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click the link on our website. www.road2healing.com (Look for the red writing) I hope you have found comfort and healing at the SR2H website. God bless you. | Name | veronica |
| Date | 2008-04-12 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | veronica ,veronica 03-06-05 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | Louise I lost my girlfriend Veronica, she took her life away in front of me,I had attended 3 of your meetings and I was woundering if you still do it because I still need help, at times I still feel suicidale and I feel like I can't handle this pain that will not go away,lately I been feeling very depress, I don't want to get up or go to work,and I can't afford to loose my job again because of the same reason, I lost 3 dental assistant jobs because I can't concentrate or miss work,I was drinking alot and for the same reason I stop drinking and now I keep all my feelings inside and I feel that it is eating me up inside because it is very hard for me to cry and when I drink it is so much easier to let it come out. I am so tiered of this feelings, at times I still get angry at her for killing her self,also at god and that angers me more because I cannot understand how I can have does ugly feelings towards him(god). Also it is not fare for my family,friends,her family,and my serf.I get depress just thinking that god does not forgive does that take there on life away and that is very hard for me to cope with,how can I get him to forgive her,so she can rest in peace,her sister and I started talking after almost 3 years of her death because they thought I had killed her,and theres times that we fight real ugly,she gets alot of anger, and tells me alot of ugly things,but I try to put my self in her shoes and I understand her anger towards me,but just like I need her she needs me. |