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| Date | 2008-08-18 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | My husband, 7/24/06 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | I lost my wonderful husband of 24 years, Van Farley, on July 24th, 2006. Van had gone through numerous surgeries in the 10 years before his death and had become addicted to oxycontin. The doctors would hand it out like candy and then when they thought he should be no longer in pain, they would cut him off. There aren't enough resources for those addicted to pain pills to help taper themm off without the pain of withdrawals. He had gone through the pain, both emotional and physical, so many times, I guess he just couldn't do it one more time. He shot himself in the head while I was in China on a business trip. It's been two years and I'm still a mess. There are good days and bad days but I still cry at some point every day. I wish I had known how bad it was for him so I could have tried even harder to get help. I don't think the guilt will ever go away. My son was home with him when he died and it's so hard for me to believe that he would ever do that to his son; having him hear the shot and tun into the room. I was actually on the phone with my son and he was taking the phone in to my husband when he shot himself. I heard the shot on the phone and then heard the agonized scream from my son. It's been a tough 2 years. You don't ever get over it, you just learn how to better live with it. |
| Date | 2008-08-18 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | august 6 2008 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | I lost my beautifull wife Karen I miss her so.please help me.Idont know what to do. |
| Date | 2008-08-15 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | Mother-in-law 7-20-08, Uncle 8-06, Cousin 05-00 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | Hello all, I'm Amy, my family recently lost our mother/grandmother to carbon monoxide poisoning. She had a wonderful family with 6 grandchildren. We miss her terribly and are trying to deal with the reality of what happened. We only wish she would have asked for help, we had no idea of the personal hell she must have been going through for her to do what she did. She was my son's best friend and the greatest grandma you could ever imagine. She travelled everywhere with us and we planned on building our new home so that she could live with us in the future if she ever needed to instead of long term care. My son always said that when my husband and I passed, that he'd have our home moved down to my mother in laws so that they'd have them connected to have a nice large home. My children have never, ever had another babysitter, never been to daycare, never had someone rock them to sleep, never had someone play, color or make paper cutouts of Star Wars Characters like she did. I was so lost when we found her, that I didn't even know where to take our children, as she was the one that always took care of us. We miss her terribly and I cannot get my husband's voice from over the phone when he found her. I wake up several times at night scared to death of that phone conversation. I never, ever want to have that again. Thanks for listening. |
| Date | 2008-08-15 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | Son June 17, 2008 |
| Message | Hello all, My name is Robyn. I lost my 24 year old son Keith on June 17, 2008. I am hoping to find support and healing with others who have experienced a similar loss. Sincerely, Robyn |
| Date | 2008-08-13 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | Lost son on May 5, 2008 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | My son was only 18 when he took his life and our life as we knew it. He lived with us and we still live in the same house. I was reading your 3 month slump and I seem to have hit that because I had to take short term disability from work. I am working toward healing but I have no idea how long it will be before I can concentrate enough to do my job and be a wife and mom again. I still feel to shattered and lost. I am glad that I found your site. Cassie |
| Date | 2008-08-07 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | Nov. 20, 2007 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | Yes |
| Message | Family, I have been through the worst, losing my oldest son and dearest friend, Bryan to suicide. I feel truly Bless to have found this amazing website. I feel as though sometimes I've lost my soul. The pain of this kind death is a very dark,long journey. By God's grace and mercy, I have made it this far, I will keep on going, and praying for God's understanding and widsom, and relying on the ones here that know my pain to well. |
| Date | 2008-08-06 |
| Location |  |
| Survivor? Loss and date | boyfriend**Matt June 20 2008 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | Sometimes i wonder how i am still going! My boyfriend Matt shot himself on June 20, i was going to his house to go to the lake with him, and me and his roommate went in his room to find him. It was 1 mth and 6 days before his twin brothers wedding. From that moment on, I will never be the same! I miss him more and more everyday! Im 22 and he was 26, I feel alot of confusion! Depression is SOO horrible, it really can make you not be yourself. I wish i could have helped more, i had no idea that it was that bad for him. Im more alone now than Ive ever been. None of my friends understand! I feel aweful for all of ya'll and what you have been through! I pray that we will make it through this, because i dont know if i can make it through alone! |
| Date | 2008-08-06 |
| Survivor? Loss and date | my sister 05-30-08 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | Thank you for sharing your experience. It is devastating to experience a loss through suicide. I loved my sister and we were very close until her relapse after 15 years of sobriety. She hung herself in her home where she raised two beautiful children with her husband Mark. She had made previous attempts as she struggled with alcoholism and depression. I was the last to speak with her. Her blood alcohol according to her autopsy was between .38 and .41. I live in the area of Bend, Oregon and am hoping to find a local support group. I am anxiious to meet others who can assure me that I am not crazy. I will look forward to reading more on your website. Thank you, Pat |
| Date | 2008-08-04 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | mother july 10,2008 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | thankyou for a wonderful site. I have been searching for the unattainable answers. |
| Date | 2008-08-02 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | husband 10/22/06 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | Dear Harriet, It has been nearly two years and I have been on a fast track- retraining to find a job, getting affairs in order and I think I am OK most days..... why do the feelings rush back just when you least expect them to? I still struggle with feelings of my own inadequatcy.... and I know that it stems from the suicide of my husband. He shot himself right in front of me, I still have a memory block of the exact image. I only know it happened, and what I did before it happened and the image of the back of his head on the floor. I know you feel my pain, how can I move forward.... have I not given things enough time? |
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