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click the link on our website. www.road2healing.com (Look for the red writing) I hope you have found comfort and healing at the SR2H website. God bless you. | Name | Annette |
| Date | 2008-11-10 |
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| Survivor? Loss and date | I lost my mom on 6-17-08 |
| Interested in our SR2H Survivors Newsletter? | yes |
| Message | I lost my mom to suicide on 6-17-08.
I'm really having a hard time with her death, for I have all the unanswered questions. Feelings of sadness,greif,guilt,disbeleif,hurt,anger etc.
My mom was my best friend. We were more like sisters. She had suffered from years of chronic pain and depression as well. My brother was murdered in 1986, at the age of 26. This is when my mom started going down hill. She was once a healthy,happy, and vibrant person. But, her health, physically and mentally slowly worsened with time. I miss her so much, and I'm dreading the approaching holidays that are coming soon.
She died by drug overdose. Several different drugs were found in her system.
I had just visited with her on Friday, before she took her life on Saturday. I feel alot of guilt and anger for not knowing what she was about to do. Our visit as nice, as I started to leave, she gave me a hug, but this hug was different for she kept holding me and would not let go for some time. How did I miss this? How could I not be aware that she was having suicidal thoughts? Why didn't I do something, anything!
What's left of our small family will never be the same. It's just myself and my sister now, and our children. I don't know what I would do without them right now.
Some days I am a total mess and some days I do manage to get through the day. The memories are all I have left now. I do have some precious memories that I will cherish forever.
Sincerely, Annette |